I'm currently sitting in the office with another 30 minutes to go for lunch with my supervisor. Today marks the last day of my internship in New Zealand that I have enjoyed immensely.
That's not the point why I am writing this letter though. Rather than saying I am writing a letter to the unknown, it should be that I am writing to someone known but he would never know. So, maybe it should be unsent letters to him. Anyway. That is still not my point.
Prior to coming here, I was unsure about a lot of things, especially what lies in my future. I was contemplating to change to another course instead of continuing what I have been doing so far. Obviously, no one supported me and I wasn't even sure of myself either. It was just my usual I-need-to-feel-that-I-am-getting-out-of-a-whirlpool feelings. It was just a spur of moment, I don't even know if I really want it. Thinking back now, I don't think I ever wanted it.
Coming here cleared my head a little, made me stronger and most importantly, reminded me what was important to me since day 1. And this was because of him, and perhaps God.
I feel immensely blessed by the God who would not forsake a child in distress and uncertainty. He wouldn't forsake His child, but I just didn't think that God would help me. Anyway, it began with a certain known him, and then I stumbled upon King's College London's page and just suddenly I had this thought to apply for university.
To be honest, I have always wanted to study in King's but obviously finances were a problem and I started to push UK universities out of my mind and concentrated on universities elsewhere. Well, I am in the process of sending my application in and I know for sure I really want this.
Anyway, after that, photos of London started to dominate my tumblr and I guess, I was even more determined to send my application in. And I hope that I will get to meet him when I get there.
He probably would never know the effects he had on my future and I. But I know for sure, it will never be regret.
That's not the point why I am writing this letter though. Rather than saying I am writing a letter to the unknown, it should be that I am writing to someone known but he would never know. So, maybe it should be unsent letters to him. Anyway. That is still not my point.
Prior to coming here, I was unsure about a lot of things, especially what lies in my future. I was contemplating to change to another course instead of continuing what I have been doing so far. Obviously, no one supported me and I wasn't even sure of myself either. It was just my usual I-need-to-feel-that-I-am-getting-out-of-a-whirlpool feelings. It was just a spur of moment, I don't even know if I really want it. Thinking back now, I don't think I ever wanted it.
Coming here cleared my head a little, made me stronger and most importantly, reminded me what was important to me since day 1. And this was because of him, and perhaps God.
I feel immensely blessed by the God who would not forsake a child in distress and uncertainty. He wouldn't forsake His child, but I just didn't think that God would help me. Anyway, it began with a certain known him, and then I stumbled upon King's College London's page and just suddenly I had this thought to apply for university.
To be honest, I have always wanted to study in King's but obviously finances were a problem and I started to push UK universities out of my mind and concentrated on universities elsewhere. Well, I am in the process of sending my application in and I know for sure I really want this.
Anyway, after that, photos of London started to dominate my tumblr and I guess, I was even more determined to send my application in. And I hope that I will get to meet him when I get there.
He probably would never know the effects he had on my future and I. But I know for sure, it will never be regret.
